The Gift of Unlearning
I didn't discover the gift of unlearning until later in my 20’s. So much of what I thought I believed had been projected onto me and was attached to people, constructs, and institutions that I wasn’t deeply invested in or connected to. I was defining success and happiness by how much money I was (or wasn’t) making, my progress in life was based on what milestones I hit by a certain age, and I wasn’t clear on my personal goals because they were, well, someone else’s goals for me. Then something shifted—I hit what I would call my rock bottom at 25. Between gigs and out of work, depressed with little to no money, rejecting corporate life for the life of the working artist, I literally had no idea what was next. It forced me to be still.
I came across this book called “Conversations with God” by Neale Donald Walsh and it changed my life. I started asking myself, what thoughts are serving you Orlando? How is this helping you move to the highest version of yourself in this moment? Questions I had never really took the time to ask myself before. It prompted me to peel back my layers and challenged everything I thought I knew about my history, my culture, my spiritual beliefs, how I defined my moral code—all of it. It felt like an unearthing of so many truths, and the beginning of unlearning so many processes that were hindering me from just being.
I realize I have the power of choice, and understanding how to harness that power is crucial in my creation process. I get to choose how I define myself and what gets my energy. I get to choose worthiness instead of judgment, and love instead of fear. The gift of unlearning hasn't just been in the re-programming of my mind, but also in the re-purposing of my life. It’s an everyday, every moment type of process that allows me to experience peace, gratitude and freedom on a high level. Living in that power has changed my perspective and how I move through the world.